Today i’m going to do something different. Instead of the usual interview format, im simply going to let you understand Katya through her very personal and unique artwork and their descriptions. She describes her work as a “diary”–an emotional and philosophical outlet for the world to see. Enjoy.
For a very long time my skin would crawl the second someone picked up my sketchbook. I felt as though by looking at my art the outsider were looking into my soul, like they were reading my diary, or my thoughts.
Finally I am at the point where I am comfortable enough to share myself with the world outside of my own head. The fact that I can share my artwork is a huge step for me and it has become very liberating. It is exhilarating to expose myself is such a raw way, like I am standing on the edge of a cliff looking down; and now I am not afraid to see the bottom. I am not afraid of others seeing into me. It has become a way for me to face my inner torment – by forcing those feelings out into the open I force myself to accept them.
Color choice has always been an important part of the planning process for my work. In the past few years I have been developing my own personal relationship with color – learning psychological and physiological effects each color has on human beings.
This piece has a great deal of personal emotion invested in it. One of the reasons being that the model is a very close friend of mine. Knowing the kind of person that he is really influenced the color and composition this.
The colors used were chosen particularly for their symbolism; green is a color of healing, balance, and life. Gold is symbolic of the sun – not only shedding light and truth, but also giving life to all it comes in contact with. Gold is a color of power, strength and justice. It is also a reference to “The Golden Rule” – treat others as you would be treated. It is no coincidence that I chose to lay the gold in the area surrounding the heart. The person who inspired this piece is very nurturing and loving, and always trying to do “the right thing.”
I chose the position the body in a way to clearly display each contour line of his muscular anatomy. The position evokes reference to Christ’s crucifixion, though I myself am not religious. The reference is more about sacrifice and selfless love than structured religion.
Another theme one might notice in my work is the sexual undertones in each piece.
Human sexuality is a huge personal interest of mine. I love learning about the human psyche and the psychology behind our thoughts, feelings, and motivation.
I believe that each individual’s sexuality has a huge impact on our personality. This is not to say that one must be sexually active for it to effect us – human sexuality is not simply about “sex.” Human sexuality is a basic human instinct that influences our actions and desires.
“Painting is just another way of keeping a diary.” – Picasso once said. For me it is exactly that. An outlet to express things I either don’t want to say or don’t know how to.
I’ve heard many people say every artist puts themselves in each piece. I do believe that there is a part of myself in every piece I create whether it is bright and cheerful or dark and disturbing.
I have been battling depression for years, and over this past summer I completely broke down. I hit a wall. It was the most painful experience I’ve been through yet. It was completely debilitating – I couldn’t speak, only scream and sob. I co uld hardly move, the only thing I could do was carve and paint, scream and sleep. This was the only outlet I had. I wanted to hurt everything around me, I wanted to hurt myself. I had the most uncontrollable urge to destroy everything. Luckily I had art as an outlet and was able to release some of my pain through this. It saved me.